I've decided that I don't journal enough. I go through phases every so often and get really fantastic at keeping up on it, but it's been close to two years since I've actively thought about...my thoughts--at least to the point where I can articulate them effectively.
This is a new challenge I'm setting for myself that really coincides with some life decisions I've been pondering as of late-- particularly in reference to my belief system, my fear of religiosity, and my understanding of what I have to look forward to after I die if I continue to doubt the validity of Christianity. My dad has always said he would rather believe in God and be wrong than not believe in God and be wrong. I see where he's coming from (I live with that fear everyday), but I don't totally agree. If I live my life believing in God to avoid an eternity in Hell and not for any other reason, than am I not completely missing the point? Is Christianity not meant to be a religion free of fear as opposed to a belief system founded in fear?
I understand what Christianity is supposed to be. I've got it all down in my head. I don't know that I'll ever be able to translate it into my heart.
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